I miss you ate Iya. I miss the time when it was just the two of us and all my attention is just for you. I miss our conversations and day outs.
Lately all I have been doing is scolding you to not wake the baby. And I know that you can see me answering to his every cry. Even if I tell you to not get jealous, it is completely fair to feel that way. If you try to get my attention, I still have to assess if the situation warrants my presence or if somebody else can take my place. The little one consumes all my time.
I’m sorry Iya.
I do want to be with you, to hug you and kiss you like before. Please forgive me for not being able to be everything once more for you. Now that I am back to work, my time is once more divided into not being with the both of you. I wonder if Jansen will love his lola and yaya more than me. I know I had those thoughts when I went back to work with you. I know I have a special space in your heart that nobody can fill and I hope Jansen realizes that too.
and yes, Nanay gets insecure sometimes.